For the past six years I have explored the trajectory of contemporary institutional claims for reparations for slavery and colonialism in the Caribbean. The questions that have guided my work are what are the discursive and material conditions that shape reparative policies? What motivates reparative speech? While less concerned with the possibilities and impossibilities of reparative justice. But in witnessing the pandemic's assault on Black lives and most importantly in experiencing the death of my mother, who I imagine as a practitioner of repair, I question how one can maintain “wholeness” in grief? In the absence of certainties often promised through formal processes of justice, where else can one locate repair? In this chapter I answer these questions through paying homage to my mother—her journey to repair and exploring the relationship as well as friction between grief and repair.