Anatomy of a Self-Performance and Dîwana Xwebûnê

This self-confrontational text explores autobiographical fragments on colonialism, self-colonialism, assimilation, self-assimilation, exile, immigration, and diaspora experiences through the lens of language. It aims to understand language as a ritual conjugation of sound, its mediation in the mind, its link to identity, and the trauma of its loss. Divided into two parts, the study first examines "First Diaspora," focusing on Kurdish experiences in Kars and Istanbul under Turkish state policies of assimilation and colonialism. It discusses the permanent exile of stateless Kurds, identity challenges, and Kurdish resistance. The second part, "Second Diaspora," reflects on four years in Germany, exploring colonialism’s effects and contemporary manifestations. The article’s theoretical framework draws on post-colonial and decolonial perspectives.